Still figuring it out

First of all, thanks for the advice on my post below. I'm still trying to figure out exactly what to do, but I still have a few days.

I've won an award. I'm not supposed to know; it's a secret, but I do. It's a long story, but suffice to say that my mother got far more thrilled about it than was necessary. It's one of those awards that everyone at the school gets if they hang around long enough.

The funny thing is, I was dying to earn it the last two school years. I really thought I deserved it. This year though, I've barely even thought about it.

Maybe that's the key.